I kno i haven't been blogging for a while.... but.... maybe this is a time where I put everything out....

I'm really not th type of person who doesn't think much and carry on with my life.. more like I overreact and kept thinking about it though I've been told not to... and I tend to regret many things in life easily.. and all this applies in wad is going on now...

Now that I think it through wad was going on these days... I wonder why aren't I not observant and humane enough... Why can't I see wad my parents of going thru right now.... A daughter like me who doesn't think of their parents tht much because of her own needs.... I should be punished...

So many of you think wad happened by now... well.. I'm not gonna say it.. but some of you might have figured it out.. be it in tweets or wad I'm trying to say in this post...

So mum and dad told me and bro everything a few minutes ago.. and trust me, I've been pouring out with tears and sadness till now.. Countless times have we been told.. "don't worry... continue on with your studies.. we're gonna be okay.... dad's money for th past 20 years will be able to cover up for a year for you all..." but believe me... how can I not worry?? I'm looking around my room with th things I shouldn't have bought... especially with my parents' money... I'm looking at th new bedrest and shelf which is up on my wall for about 2 weeks ago.. not thinking or noticing about wad my parents are going through right now. How stupid am I...? what's more.. they have been keeping this for over a month... trying to find a right time to tell both of us... I kno my bro is not th type of person to think so much.. but.. me??? I think I might not be able to sleep tonight...

Mum and Dad are planning to tell my grandparents about this very soon..... which is probably next week... and after thinking thru.. If the're going back to Indonesia next week, I've decided not to go to HOT camp... so yea, sorry obiangs, I'll make it up to you.

Mum and Dad are asking us right now..... "should we move to a new house? We're gonna sell one of th cars, is it alright? any suggestions?" and all these while I've been thinking.... just sell them... should I get a job without them knowing and balance it with my school? seriously.. this is not something which I should be relaxing.

Dad told us tht it has been his dream to open up a restaurant... but its impossible to do it in SG... all th expensive rent, workers, everything... its impossible.. which is where my aunt and uncle come into th picture.... so the're planning to be working tgt to open up a business in Jakarta.. which also leads to my dad coming back and forth from SG and Indo... Which is also a problem for him bcus of his back condition.... I really.... can't do anything can I?? well.. no.....

It kinda inspires me and all to throw away all these useless nonsense things i've been doing and start studying my ass off..... Tht's my only way of helping my parents and myself..... As much as I want to help out in terms of well-being and $$$, as a child and teenager, studies is your first priority isn't it??? So I think this is kinda a right time to get back on my feet and studying hard to please and at least ease th burden of my parents... and seriously... it will ease of my burden as well... it also got me to start to not taking things for granted anymore... which is why I shall not spend money unless necessary until my parents, or mainly, my dad has become stable with whatever he's doing with aunt and uncle..

So yup... speaking about money... Arts Fiesta is coming.... and as th obiangs know tht Choir has their own performance on th 10th of November.... gonna make my mum and dad come... definitely not with their own money... but pls, I hope tht all th obiangs will be able to make it on th 10th for th prelude performance.. you can bring anyone with you.. friends, family, bfs, gfs, anyone.. Its only $10, and yes, its for charity... so pls help.... Its definitely at night so don't worry..
So again,

Prelude:
Date: 10th November
Date: at night around 7:30pm
amount: $10
ALL FOR CHARITY

alright.. enough of promotions... I'm gonna go back to my drama... so yea.. everyone, be happy always... ♥

PS: I really wanted to keep this a secret.. so.. for th obiangs who have read this post, just treat it as nothing happen alright? :) Thanks darlings... yes, I'm fine.. hopefully.. but thanks.. ♥