I dunno why I'm feeling angsty every since I woke up today.... I feel like I'm just some lost girl not knowing wad I'm doing in life....

I look at th people in my life... families... Friends... Enemies... Teachers etc etc... And I have to reflect on myself... Wad am I actually doing...?

My bro is like he just got 4 strikes in bowling... He's smart... He's getting more muscular though I don't understand how or which part of it is muscular... He's gotten a love of his life which I honestly just think they should go for a honeymoon... And my parents dote him a lot. Yea.... Cousins... Oh wow the're smart and talented.. Not gonna explain.

Friends... Okay. Let's narrow it down.. My obiangs. I really envy them a lot... And I mean a lot... Looks... Intelligence..... Sociability... Humour.. Love... Care... Strength... Everything. They are unique in many ways which I can't explain it and I find myself not appearing in any of those categories mentioned... They are talented mind you. And they are all pretty. VERY PRETTY.

F8TE... Where do I even start.. All so talented in their own styles and all.. Let's face it... They got th looks too. Duh. They have swag.

I think I don't lie in any of these cus... (don't deny or anything. It's th truth)
I'm ugly... I'm not smart... I'm not pretty... I have no talent.. I'm not unique. I look at th mirror and I can't find one thing I'm confident abt. I don't understand why my mum and my grandma kept telling me tht I'm "pretty".. While my dad denies and told me to lose a few pounds... It's so ironic.

So... Yeap. I'm gonna sleep. Nevertheless, I'm still gonna put on my usual smile on my face everyday. And go on with my life... Knowing tht I'm not perfect... God knows. So I shall live on and smile. I'm glad I blogged thru my phone.. Penning down my thoughts clears my head a lot. ^^
















But my insecurities..... Is wad I have to tackle in life. I hope I don't get scolded from this... >< goodnight everyone! ♥