One day, one by one, classmates came up to her and started to talk to her, and asking her to join them for recess. That day, was the best day for the girl. Finally! She has frens! She was finally not lonely during recess. This happened for a few months, and the girl is starting to like school. Having her circle of frens has never been so enjoyable. She finally found her 'clique' of frens. But her fun days were over. Day by day, this girl started to starve during recess... would not eat a single thing, except for a hard boiled yellow yolk egg being forced in her mouth everyday.. what's funny was that her allowance was always lower than 20 cents, or sometimes, none. What happened to her money?? Well.. it all went to th 'queen' of th clique.. This queen has started it all.. asking her gang of frens whom this girl considered as her beloved frens to take her money everyday during recess and spend it all on their food, not to mention useless stationary. And not a single cent was used up on their own wallets. This carried on again for almost a year... and th girl kept it away from her mother... afraid tht she'll get scolded. So she starved everyday... and day by day, this girl was often sick. But still, the girl did not bring it up to her mother. Her 'frens' however, threatened her each day, telling her not to tell her parents or they won't be their fren anymore, and would tell the teacher. The girl was afraid, panicked. So she obeyed... So her daily routine continues every recess, and it became a torture period for the girl.. not looking forward to recess. Always queuing up to buy the same food each day for them, buying stationary they themselves not using them, feeding them etc. But th girl still kept quiet, until she was pri 2. But this did not last long... fortunately.

The girl has a 'allowance' system to keep track about how much she saved up each day, each month, each year. It is so to her mother's surprise one day to check her book, noticing th drastic amount of money being spent on. And so the mother grew curious. She kept asking the girl what happened to the money, but she didn't answer.. After countless prompting and digging out info from her, the girl gave up, crying and telling her mother what happened for the past one year. Upon hearing, the mother grew furious, went straight to call the girl's form teacher, and demanding th clique to stop whatever they did. The next day, the form teacher came in, and well, scolded the ringmaster, the 'queen' outside the class. She went back to her seat, with her eyes glaring at the girl. The form teacher summoned the girl, calmly telling her to inform her if it happens again and she went back. Her eyes went back to th 'queen'.. and there, the cold stare... the girl's nightmare came.. she's afraid.. scared... lost.. during recess, the gang went straight up to the girl and slapped her on the arm, scolding her for telling her on them. And left without her. The girl was now back how it was on her first day of school.. Alone.... Alone... 

Just when she taught her torture was over, it didn't. The gang still approached her, demanding her for money. The girl nervously shook her head, wanting to stand up for herself. And again, she got slapped and hit each time for not giving in to her needs. And they left if they won... The girl, helpless.. went straight to the benches and cried.. But like a miracle.. Three girls approached the girl, of her same age, but different class, brought her to the toilet to clean herself up and offered to have recess together. And slowly, the girl managed to smile again. The girl was wondering why the gang didn't approach her anymore.. but it didn't matter to her now. She could finally eat! And the rest of the pri 2 journey went smoothly like tht, not having a conversation with the gang since. 

Pri 3 came... and the girl's finally in a whole new class and with whole new classmates. She did not see th 'queen' anymore. The gang is no more.. all split up in diff classes. Th girl made friends very quickly. And she was happy to be with them. But on th first day of school, she received a note.. and it was from the 'queen' asking her to meet her during recess. Being a brave girl, she went up to the 'queen' during recess. Expecting a slap or a scolding from her, she only told her tht she didn't need to find her anymore. And with a smile, th girl went back.. to the real and caring people whom she can finally call them.. Friends."

A very long story isn't it?? And no, its not made up, its all true.. Well.. I think you can probably guess who the "girl" is by now... And maybe you can understand why my title says so. Why share th story?? hmmm... to show how much this girl treat her friends very seriously? Not wanting to be in that situation again, so keeping it to herself whatever grudge she kept in her heart, and most importantly.. Not wanting to be alone.. Maybe I can conclude that this girl is very afraid of being alone.. don't you think so? She trusts to easily... and she helps them willingly and whatever she could.. to gain their friendship, in return for the loneliness she tries to avoid. No matter how much friends she had and how they loved and cared for her so, whom she thanks God for bringing such wonderful friends in her life.. all th memories she made.. she always have this fear in her mind and heart..... which she can never turn away from..... 

"They aren't gonna leave me.... right???"