Its alr June... in fact.. in 7 days time, we're going into th month of July... Time flies like a rocket. idk what I have been doing for th past... 6 months?? All tht I remember doing was.. eat, sleep, dance, spazz, laugh, cry, oh.. and one more... stress. STRESS. S T R E S S. I'm gonna use this particular word for quite some time during th next half of th year.

I dunno what I've been doing. like.. honestly.. I dunno what I have been learning ever since th new semester began..this is freaky.. and I should be panicking. but i'm not.. tht makes everything worse. MUCH worse. and here comes th fun part. I'm now part of a committee. /inserts horror bg music/ yea. I'm in a committee.... idk how i got chosen, how i got into such situations, how i got this role.. but i guess... this role shall be in me until i step down.

/I'm talking lots of nonsense here wtshit/

And yes, I'm very stressed bcus of this.... very... I don't understand why th seniors chose me in th first place. But I guess I have to live with it and right now... Its our turn to step up and make a difference to HOT.. Not changing it totally... but... more like sustaining its position and not crumbling down into pieces. Its as though i'm taking a huge responsibility and burden on my shoulders. am i even cut out for this job?? am i going to put in a 110% in this? actually... i'm putting in like 200%. and i'm tired.. I'm really tired...

I'm just very tired mentally.. physically.. emotionally.... been dancing these past few days.. helped me a lot in relieving my stress...... sigh.. T.T

And I should really get started on dieting and slimming down. wtshit steph. what happened to cutting down on meals?? you need to be punished seriously. you need to be SLIM. SLIM. but NOOOO.. you're eating all sorts of nonsense. == bullshit. its time for me to starve or something. >< sigh... uhclasncjlnasjlcnjlasncla so many insecurities and disappointments in myself. hate it. hate it hate it hate it. hate myself.

And I miss my yebb... Its been 48 days. its a miracle tht I'm still surviving this 2 year hiatus. wow. /pats/
anywho... I guess I'm going to continue working hard in whatever I'm doing right now.. for th sake of him. And 2 years later, I WILL... CERTAIN. MUST. CONFIRM PLUS CHOP. GUARANTEED. breathing the korean air and welcoming him with open arms and tears in my eyes when he's released..
wait for me love.. ♥

My lovely Ohnehhh who have been there for most of my hell, depressing, and low moments in life, I thank you for being there for me for th past 6 months... and I will be there for every single one of you when you need me. You guys are like sisters to me and I'll love every one of you regardless ♥
My CYD babies... its th start of something new... a new beginning.. a new journey.. a new future.. let's all work together and dance with all our hearts and passion. ♥
My Fate.. I miss you guys.. my pillar of support and happiness.. I hope it has not been broken. Let's catch up with each other soon.. not for dance.. not for spazz.. but as friends as close as buds. ♥

and now my new bunch of peeps that has made it in that somewhere special in my heart... My HOT exco. Its gonna be a tough journey.. I kno. but i hope all of us work hard together and be closer than ever.. and work not for th benefit of us, but for th school, and for our members in our club. I love you guys although I may seem a bit harsh and a bitch during meetings and whatsapp. I'll change for th better. ♥

And of cus... My boys~ I'll see you in 13 days... ♥

and here's something to share tht made my night. :")



Goodnight. ♥