I'm done with my resumee (or whatever you call it) and i'm pretty surprised at my progression. :") i finished it in a couple of hours despite procrastinating for so long and getting scolded by bb for not doing it yet. heh. sorry bb. ♥

so anyways, i'm in need of grief.. yes. grief and sadness in life are kinda essential i guess. lmao. its not like it brings happiness and such, but i guess it sorta helps you to express and rant out your feelings tht has been hiding deep inside you thru actions, and not words... in this case = CRYING. and me, being th typical and stupid gong goon person ever, decided to watch SS5 Manila's gray paper... at midnight...... == IDEK. okay so, yes, if you guys think i DID NOT CRY, well i think you're terribly mistaken. I cried and wailed... and cry even more with all th disgusting m***** flowing out (you don't have to kno yea.)

Its been... 175 days since JW left.. and i can't believe i'm still alive. /phew/ guess sometimes i really miss him a lot especially his presence and everything.. ;;;; I really have to thank Kyu for suggesting to perform Gray paper live in SS5 as KR... ♥ #butwhyyounoperforminsingaporehuh. and the've performed this song in... 4(?) stops alr.. and fancam tht i watched for each stop never fails to make me cry like today... its pretty bad, especially the first stop in Tokyo.

//Th overwhelming moment when you hear th first tune to the song, and you panicked wondering why tht song was playing... turns out Kyu was at th spotlight singing th first line.. and you teared at th sight of it. he's really singing gray paper.. and you wonder what's gonna happen next. Then you realised it was Wook's voice next singing th next few lines... this made you sob and tear even more. it was like th perfect harmony you could ever ask for ever since JW sang Gray paper in Seoul before he left. And then th bridge part. BAM you see a VCR of JW's happiest moments. /cues in ugly sobbing and wails/ and you sob even more when you hear JW's voice, thinking he was there... but he's not.... and there, its as though KRY is standing on stage.. together, harmonizing th best OST of th year.... and you felt as though its real.. Jw's really there... you could totally picture and visualise it in your head... but at th end of th fancam, JW is only in a VCR. and reality kicks back in. Its only Kyuwook... JW's not there...//

Tht's me... exactly in tht scenario. sobbing like a girl who just got dumped by a guy and your heart just hurts so bad tht it pains to see his smile and voice. its just so sdnkldnflndshfbksjdnfaknfklnanflasflkdfnc amazingly amazing. Kyuwook... thank you. ♥

Its 554 days left for seeing him step out of army..... its terrifying. tht's like another year for me to survive. but then again, i thank God tht its one day closer to seeing him in Korea. ♥ wait for me dearest, i'll come for you...... ♥

so... here are some fancams of Gray paper by th amazing KRY from all th stops they performed so far. ♥
(cr: all videos are credited to th owner ♥, not me)