No matter how much I try to tell myself nothing is gonna change the present, I still regret about my decisions almost a week ago. I let fear, nervousness, doubts, and autonomy took over me. And now I regret letting emotions took over.

I tell myself there's nothing i can do, but I regret not doing the things I think its right... and naybe the present will change... but I didn't.

I tell myself its not my fault, everyone says its not my fault nor do I deserve this, but its my fault things are like this.

Everyone seems to be moving on. But it seems i'm the only one dwelling or thinking about it like everyday. Do i care too much? Am i that affected that things are happening the way I didn't expect it to be and blaming myself for it? Am I that pissed? Disappointed? Upset? Worried? Why can't i be like the rest and move on and not care like its none of my business and not give a single crap.









This is not how I want to end something that has made my poly life/ life in general on a bad and unmemorable note. But still, I regret... and i will probably regret it for the rest of my poly life.