What the hell guys 2014 is over and now we're onto 2015. How fast time and days just pass by like that. Sooner or later I will be standing on stage in CC and collecting my cert for completing 3 years of poly education. WHAT THE HECK? Since when did I complete poly....? This is really insane. And the question now is what's next for me? I don't know yet, but I really hope I will find the answer soon. But that's not the main point now of why I'm writing this post tonight.

So my dad just randomly out of nowhere asked me a question just now. He asked, "Do you prefer to live in Singapore or Indonesia more?" That honestly caught me offguard. Normally, when I was still... young and naive, I would always say Indonesia BUT for different reason. I wanted to live in Indonesia was bcus of my family. My family is huge. Like, so huge. And I love that, because I get to see many of my relatives, and live with the people I love most; my grandparents, my cousins, aunt, uncle, and my own family... and now we even have a house pug, and she has become so precious to me. 

I get to visit my grandfather at the cemetery last 2014 while I was in Indonesia. I went to Indonesia for Christmas and usually I didn't really bother? or remember going to visit my grandfather. But idk.. last year, I was determined to go there, despite the very busy schedule that we had because apparently I don't have the luxury of staying there for a month like I used to. Going back to the cemetery after probably more than 8-10 years is kinda overwhelming for me. you don't wanna know how much salt water the grass has gotten from my tear glands. Telling my grandfather how much I've gotten this far in life kinda gave me happiness and satisfaction. And it made me realise, that technically, I've been living in Singapore for probably 13 years, and counting. 

Living and studying in Singapore for almost 13 years... technically I could call it my own home already. Although I have to suffer the torture and pain of learning chinese, going through PSLE, O's, just like any other Singaporean or people studying here, I have learnt so many whether is on book, or experience. I get to make so many new friends right now, that I don't know where I will be without them. I have found the interest and love for something that I want to do as a career, because of the experience I have been living in Singapore. I have found inspiration among the people around me. And I get to make decisions that I have no ever imagined myself doing. 

My dad said whether going to Singapore was the right decision back then. And I think he did. I don't know where I'll be, or what I'll be doing if I were to continue living in Indonesia. Will I still meet the kind of friends I have right now? Will I still be in early childhood? Will I still like super junior? Will I be going on trips or overseas with my friends? Looking back to all these and for the past 13 years of my life in Singapore, I actually loved it. The hardest thing right now, if I had to leave Singapore for Indonesia, is to probably leave without a tear. 

So back to the question my dad asked me. 

I said Singapore. 

(BUT, that doesn't mean I'll turn my PR into Singaporean that is a different and more complex problem heh)