Monday, June 8, 2015 
This day will forever be etched in my memory because it really was a huge day for me, my friends who are graduating with me, and especially my family including my grandparents who chose to come all the way to Singapore just to watch me graduate.
I'm doing a dedication posts for Individual/groups of people, because I feel that my posts in Instagram will not do me any justice hahahaha but nevertheless, I will try my best to mention everyone I could remember who has contributed to my amazing journey in NP, despite us not taking a photo together during graduation but ITS OKAY! I WILL DO IT. (if you wanna fast forward to the group/name just cltr+F your name/nickname)
F8TE/F♤TE
My first bunch of poly friends that I have made.... thank you so much for sticking around regardless of different beliefs and interest along the way. All 6 of us came from different courses, but hey, look where we are now. Thank you so much for not giving up on each other- whether or not is with dance last 2 years or school related or even in relationship... Thank you, each and everyone of you.
Dongie
I should firstly thank you and apologize for everything we've been through, especially how you've been going through so much but I was not there to help or support you when you needed most. I don't deserve your endless love and care towards me, because I think I have been a horrible friend towards you in many ways I could think of. But you're still here and I hope you know that YOU have been someone important to me since we started getting close. We've been through so much shit together- especially dance. I think nobody knows how much hardship you have been through to achieve your dream of standing on stage with a crew you trust in and dance in front of the public. I know you've been chasing after your dream for so long, and I am so inspired by the burning flame in you to keep on going. Please don't let that fire burn out, because those people are not worth your efforts. Thank you for keeping me close to you although I may have seen as though I've been pushing you away. I apologize for my foolish decisions and actions for those 2 years esp in dance. You've stood strong for me, and I will do the same. I hope you and emolilililili are happy and I am so happy for you two you have no idea. You're my one and only dongie and if you need anything even if its dance or whatsoever, I will try my bestest to help you in anyway I can.
There's so many more things to say to you, but you know it boils down to how much you mean to me in my life. ♥
I should firstly thank you and apologize for everything we've been through, especially how you've been going through so much but I was not there to help or support you when you needed most. I don't deserve your endless love and care towards me, because I think I have been a horrible friend towards you in many ways I could think of. But you're still here and I hope you know that YOU have been someone important to me since we started getting close. We've been through so much shit together- especially dance. I think nobody knows how much hardship you have been through to achieve your dream of standing on stage with a crew you trust in and dance in front of the public. I know you've been chasing after your dream for so long, and I am so inspired by the burning flame in you to keep on going. Please don't let that fire burn out, because those people are not worth your efforts. Thank you for keeping me close to you although I may have seen as though I've been pushing you away. I apologize for my foolish decisions and actions for those 2 years esp in dance. You've stood strong for me, and I will do the same. I hope you and emolilililili are happy and I am so happy for you two you have no idea. You're my one and only dongie and if you need anything even if its dance or whatsoever, I will try my bestest to help you in anyway I can.
There's so many more things to say to you, but you know it boils down to how much you mean to me in my life. ♥
Clar/Dubu
Hi precious Dubu, I know things have been hard on you after the 2nd year of poly, yet I couldn't do much to help, But nevertheless, Thank you for being one cutiepie when we were in dance, bringing us so much laughter and happiness whenever we're so tired. heheehe please keep on smiling... you look pretty like that. When you cried that day, I was hurt and I don't know how to comfort you. I know you're a strong girl... and you will always be. I will really miss bullying you and screaming dubu at you whenever I see you hehe. I hope we will still keep in contact. And whatever that you're doing in the future, I hope everything will be smooth sailing for you love hehe ^^ ♥
Hi precious Dubu, I know things have been hard on you after the 2nd year of poly, yet I couldn't do much to help, But nevertheless, Thank you for being one cutiepie when we were in dance, bringing us so much laughter and happiness whenever we're so tired. heheehe please keep on smiling... you look pretty like that. When you cried that day, I was hurt and I don't know how to comfort you. I know you're a strong girl... and you will always be. I will really miss bullying you and screaming dubu at you whenever I see you hehe. I hope we will still keep in contact. And whatever that you're doing in the future, I hope everything will be smooth sailing for you love hehe ^^ ♥
Dione
Hello Dione, I need a new nickname for you bcus all the others have a nickname. We have to find a new name on the 5th May. Yes, I do admit we're not that close or not as close as the others. And I regret not learning more about you except for those general kind of information. But, thank you for always taking of me from afar especially when we were dancing in Year 1. I could still remember that you're always so concerned about me and all so, thank you for that. Thank you for everything, Dione, and all the best for whatever you wanna do in Lasselle(?) If you're a successful editor/star/writer/producer or whatever.. and have connection to sj and everything /wink wink/ ;) Don't be afraid of anything Dione! you can do it and I know you can ♥
BB Girl
Hello Dione, I need a new nickname for you bcus all the others have a nickname. We have to find a new name on the 5th May. Yes, I do admit we're not that close or not as close as the others. And I regret not learning more about you except for those general kind of information. But, thank you for always taking of me from afar especially when we were dancing in Year 1. I could still remember that you're always so concerned about me and all so, thank you for that. Thank you for everything, Dione, and all the best for whatever you wanna do in Lasselle(?) If you're a successful editor/star/writer/producer or whatever.. and have connection to sj and everything /wink wink/ ;) Don't be afraid of anything Dione! you can do it and I know you can ♥
BB Girl
You annoying bb girl. hahaha I guess this is what our relationship is like huh. I feel that I'm indebted to you in so many ways ever since we met thru F8TE and how we just learned that we were from DPA and stuff. Ever since then, you've been one of my pillars of strength and comfort, someone whom I can relate to and share my inner most doubts and fears to you without being afraid of being judged at. The shit we talk about are endless- from life to relationship to studies to anime to kpop to guys to girls to shopping omg the list is endless. Thank you so much bb for being you and opening yourself to me as much as how I open myself to you. DPA will be one of my most precious memory that I'll ever cherish, but if I could name one thing that I will never regret not doing in DPA, is meeting you. You're such an important person to me bb. You've been through so much in your personal life and I hope that things will get better for you. Don't doubt yourself about your abilities bb. I've seen how you want to be in the science field and continue to have that determination in you. Why were you being chosen in DPA in the first place then? No matter where you're going, I'm here for you and I'll support you every step of the way. ^^ I hope you have found THE one :> And yes, I'm very happy for you so stop looking at half naked guys in animes and all. Its gonna ruin you hahaha you know how much I love you bb so yeap ♥
Maknae
Maknae maknae maknae... everyone keeps saying that you're not the maknae but me, and I think I can see why now hahaha Thank you for being the very matured and composed maknae that I've ever met :") But then again, there really are times where you've just unleashed your maknae self which is very adorable hehe ^^ Thank you for always being the rationale and reliant maknae we need if not we will probably suffer. And, you really really REALLY are a good dancer so please don't let others tell you otherwise. I'm pretty sure you dance wayyyyy better than I do. D4F has let us know more about one another and I'm glad we went through that together. I hope that you can overcome with many more obstacles and challenges in the future. :> ALL THE BEST MAKNAE ♥
Ps: Can I call xiu min as xiaobao? its sounds so much easier and maybe it can be your new nickname hehehe
Maknae maknae maknae... everyone keeps saying that you're not the maknae but me, and I think I can see why now hahaha Thank you for being the very matured and composed maknae that I've ever met :") But then again, there really are times where you've just unleashed your maknae self which is very adorable hehe ^^ Thank you for always being the rationale and reliant maknae we need if not we will probably suffer. And, you really really REALLY are a good dancer so please don't let others tell you otherwise. I'm pretty sure you dance wayyyyy better than I do. D4F has let us know more about one another and I'm glad we went through that together. I hope that you can overcome with many more obstacles and challenges in the future. :> ALL THE BEST MAKNAE ♥
Ps: Can I call xiu min as xiaobao? its sounds so much easier and maybe it can be your new nickname hehehe
CYD
I cannot deny that you have somewhat played a part in my poly life journey. Thank you for all the precious times we've made when we were dancing as a team or just enjoying a simple meal or outing. You're all great dancers. I'm sorry I just left the group without saying anything, or without giving you guys a heads up. I hope everyone will be able to find their own dream. ♥
HOT WARRIORS (yes I've decided to add that warrior in cus i think we are one heh)
Of boy where do I begin. Like I said in my ig post, I never wanted to be in HOT tbh, or worse in the exco.. and looking back now, I'm actually thankful I went for that interview in the midst of my DPA camp and in my fbts hahahaha. I think I could still remember our very awkward first ever meeting with the seniors ha ha ha awkz. But then, as time flies, we got better too. Nobody will ever understand how tough it was for us to go through our first few months into exco. But we managed to pull through and prove people that HOT DOES exist and will move up forward regardless of number. We broke through the many stereotype people have on us. I think we definitely achieved our main goal of being in exco- a change. Now i'm seeing HOT moving and progressing so much, and I say we have caused that change. So whoop whoop excos ^^ HOT was my home, and thank you for being my family excos. ♥
Mir Siwook
I shall not say how we met previously cus boy that was a long long longgg history back there but hey! look where we are now lmao. Thank you for being my companion and buddy back in the old days and I hope we can still continue doing that! Thank you for taking the lead and having to deal with all of us during meetings and how we always have to come back to the topic. Its been a tough year for all of us, and esp you. You've become so much stronger than before and there's so many things that I've learned about you throughout our days in HOT. We fight, learn, forgive and love again... at the end of the day, this doesn't affect our relationship we have and I'm so so thankful for that. I hope you can get into that Uni you've been eyeing for! Please tell us in advance when its all confirmed and everything so I can cry and hug you. You're gonna be the only Siwook shipper I've ever met but that's something unique about you so ♥
Elton Boss
Boss ah, I should thank you so much since DPA days till now. I feel as though we've known each other for so long???? if that makes sense? I feel as though you and I have this same frequency kind of thing when it comes to leadership and everything hahaha. Whenever I felt as though no one could understand me from my point of view, you do and its very relieving to hear at times because I would then feel as though I'm such an asshole. We've gotten so much closer after being in exco tgt and also in D4F, so thank you so much for taking care of me during those days Elton. I could still remember our dance steps and how we would train during breaks to give a bam bam performance during ABC. It was so fun doing that and I remember how we used to laugh at how stupid but cool our moves were. I've shared with you my doubts and concerns about HOT too. Thank you for being my listening ear whenever we have our long train rides back home. I remember that very day when I just cry after leaving the conference room and I didn't care who was there and you came in to comfort me :") You told me to not regret and let go, and I've told you all my regrets, and you understand. Thank you for that and for being a great leader, friend and dance buddy man. Good luck in SIM! And yes, all of us shall be there for your wedding bruh ♥
Boss ah, I should thank you so much since DPA days till now. I feel as though we've known each other for so long???? if that makes sense? I feel as though you and I have this same frequency kind of thing when it comes to leadership and everything hahaha. Whenever I felt as though no one could understand me from my point of view, you do and its very relieving to hear at times because I would then feel as though I'm such an asshole. We've gotten so much closer after being in exco tgt and also in D4F, so thank you so much for taking care of me during those days Elton. I could still remember our dance steps and how we would train during breaks to give a bam bam performance during ABC. It was so fun doing that and I remember how we used to laugh at how stupid but cool our moves were. I've shared with you my doubts and concerns about HOT too. Thank you for being my listening ear whenever we have our long train rides back home. I remember that very day when I just cry after leaving the conference room and I didn't care who was there and you came in to comfort me :") You told me to not regret and let go, and I've told you all my regrets, and you understand. Thank you for that and for being a great leader, friend and dance buddy man. Good luck in SIM! And yes, all of us shall be there for your wedding bruh ♥
Matt Step/Kid
I think kid describes you pretty perfectly haha I'm just joking. We have this weird kind of relationship that I cannot understand nor describe. But it has been a pleasure and fun working with you Matt. Thank you for always giving very enthusiastic suggestions which I think at some times are pretty cool but well.. impossible. I could still remember how we have to stay up for hours and hours cleaning and working on the proposal, also how you will get pissed at times haha. I think we fight a lot... not in a bad way but yea, we always fight/bully/tease each other a lot haven't we? hahaha please don't get the wrong way whenever we scold each other, its out of good intention :> oh how could I forget how you always tease at my general knowledge and blurness. okay I think we're even then. :") but really, thank you for being a great buddy especially during camps/events/meetings/whatnot. Thank you for all the contributions and the hard work you've put so much in although people may not see it. Thank you for being the annoying and enthusiastic and optimistic Matt we all know and love ♥
Please don't forget about our existence now that you got your other half :") or i will really REALLY scold you.
I think kid describes you pretty perfectly haha I'm just joking. We have this weird kind of relationship that I cannot understand nor describe. But it has been a pleasure and fun working with you Matt. Thank you for always giving very enthusiastic suggestions which I think at some times are pretty cool but well.. impossible. I could still remember how we have to stay up for hours and hours cleaning and working on the proposal, also how you will get pissed at times haha. I think we fight a lot... not in a bad way but yea, we always fight/bully/tease each other a lot haven't we? hahaha please don't get the wrong way whenever we scold each other, its out of good intention :> oh how could I forget how you always tease at my general knowledge and blurness. okay I think we're even then. :") but really, thank you for being a great buddy especially during camps/events/meetings/whatnot. Thank you for all the contributions and the hard work you've put so much in although people may not see it. Thank you for being the annoying and enthusiastic and optimistic Matt we all know and love ♥
Please don't forget about our existence now that you got your other half :") or i will really REALLY scold you.
Kachun
Our senpai and prodigy of HOT, I have to admit, I was once very very intimidated by you because you gave off that strong, intelligent, confident kind of aura. And when I saw you in exco too i was scared tits man, this is Kevin!? But I guess I was wrong, you're one... interesting and amazing dude. Thank you for always being the rational and "think common sense before acting" in the team cus we really need it. Your directness has taught us so many things that we never knew and how we should change for the better. As time goes on, I felt as though you've opened up so much more to us, and I know you don't really show your feelings that much, but it was so nice to hear you showing your true self to us and I thank you for that ^^ Thank you for doing... most of the saikang job especially being the photography of the team :") And also thank you for always helping me during those games although I always stubbornly say I don't need help. I will miss your OCD-ness... oh and your dancing too hehehehe :") All the best to you and your future and your other half ♥
Our senpai and prodigy of HOT, I have to admit, I was once very very intimidated by you because you gave off that strong, intelligent, confident kind of aura. And when I saw you in exco too i was scared tits man, this is Kevin!? But I guess I was wrong, you're one... interesting and amazing dude. Thank you for always being the rational and "think common sense before acting" in the team cus we really need it. Your directness has taught us so many things that we never knew and how we should change for the better. As time goes on, I felt as though you've opened up so much more to us, and I know you don't really show your feelings that much, but it was so nice to hear you showing your true self to us and I thank you for that ^^ Thank you for doing... most of the saikang job especially being the photography of the team :") And also thank you for always helping me during those games although I always stubbornly say I don't need help. I will miss your OCD-ness... oh and your dancing too hehehehe :") All the best to you and your future and your other half ♥
Nadia Swag
Hi Nadia! It must be tough on you to try and balance HOT with your school work. You may be MIA for most of the time during our meetings and all, thank you for making the effort to try and come even if its for a short while. I feel as though there's so little that I know you and I should've put in more effort in getting to know you more. But nevertheless, I'm so happy that you're coming for our meetups and everything hehehe ^^ I wish you all the best for your studies in Aussie because I really know how capable you are! And don't let anyone stop you from going towards your dream and we're here if you need us ♥
Hi Nadia! It must be tough on you to try and balance HOT with your school work. You may be MIA for most of the time during our meetings and all, thank you for making the effort to try and come even if its for a short while. I feel as though there's so little that I know you and I should've put in more effort in getting to know you more. But nevertheless, I'm so happy that you're coming for our meetups and everything hehehe ^^ I wish you all the best for your studies in Aussie because I really know how capable you are! And don't let anyone stop you from going towards your dream and we're here if you need us ♥
Char Book
My confidante ever since we've gotten close (which I actually couldn't remember how). I guess its because we've slept together during ABC. Ever since then, I've told, shared and ranted to you everything- be it HOT stuff, personal things, or even work/studies. I feel as though you're someone who could understand me so much and give me the bestest advice I could ever gotten. All the late night talks on the phone and how I unleashed my darkest and ugliest side of me, yet you still trusted and accepted me for who I am, and I cannot thank you enough for that Char. Thank you for stopping me when I wanted to be the bad guy in HOT, waking me up to look at reality, and telling me that there's more to just being stuck to the past and mistakes we've made in the past and future. I told you that I could never get rid of my regrets for that day, and I was actually very sad that you weren't there that day, because I'm sure you would've said something back then. But well... like you said, it was all in the past and its time to move on right? But nevertheless enough talking about that, you're a beautiful person inside and out. You will be a successful writer in the future I can see it (i will be the first to buy your book although you might know I won't read it hahaha). You know how I'm here for you now and I will never leave your side. ^^ Go forth and chase after your dreams, love. You deserve it. ♥ (ps: I shouted like cray when you went up to received your award so be honored :>)
My confidante ever since we've gotten close (which I actually couldn't remember how). I guess its because we've slept together during ABC. Ever since then, I've told, shared and ranted to you everything- be it HOT stuff, personal things, or even work/studies. I feel as though you're someone who could understand me so much and give me the bestest advice I could ever gotten. All the late night talks on the phone and how I unleashed my darkest and ugliest side of me, yet you still trusted and accepted me for who I am, and I cannot thank you enough for that Char. Thank you for stopping me when I wanted to be the bad guy in HOT, waking me up to look at reality, and telling me that there's more to just being stuck to the past and mistakes we've made in the past and future. I told you that I could never get rid of my regrets for that day, and I was actually very sad that you weren't there that day, because I'm sure you would've said something back then. But well... like you said, it was all in the past and its time to move on right? But nevertheless enough talking about that, you're a beautiful person inside and out. You will be a successful writer in the future I can see it (i will be the first to buy your book although you might know I won't read it hahaha). You know how I'm here for you now and I will never leave your side. ^^ Go forth and chase after your dreams, love. You deserve it. ♥ (ps: I shouted like cray when you went up to received your award so be honored :>)
Aud Princess
Hi Princess, you're one hell of a beauty don't you forget that. I could still remember so vividly how we were awkward back then but it was because we were the IC and AIC for the induction day that broke the huge ice. And since then, you were someone whom I could lean on (esp whenever I cry). I think I must've wet your shoulder too many times hahaha I'm sorry for that. Thank you for always listening to my rants and gave me all your comfort and love whenever I needed it. Thank you for not hesitating on your decisions and being the strong willed person I know and love. You never showed your signs of weakness and the more I get to know you and how we open up to one another, I could see how it must be a tough journey for you. You're a strong person, and I admire you for that. One thing that I would never forget was how we talked outside of caterpillar cove and how you just shed your tears.... and I understand how you must've felt, because we felt the same; regret, guilt, sadness... It was then you leaned onto me too. We shared the same pain then, and we let it all go that night. You will be a great teacher to the little ones and don't let them bully you okay ^^ And also, you can invite us to your wedding and we could talk more about how many children you want HAHAHA Smile bright love, like a sunflower ♥
Hi Princess, you're one hell of a beauty don't you forget that. I could still remember so vividly how we were awkward back then but it was because we were the IC and AIC for the induction day that broke the huge ice. And since then, you were someone whom I could lean on (esp whenever I cry). I think I must've wet your shoulder too many times hahaha I'm sorry for that. Thank you for always listening to my rants and gave me all your comfort and love whenever I needed it. Thank you for not hesitating on your decisions and being the strong willed person I know and love. You never showed your signs of weakness and the more I get to know you and how we open up to one another, I could see how it must be a tough journey for you. You're a strong person, and I admire you for that. One thing that I would never forget was how we talked outside of caterpillar cove and how you just shed your tears.... and I understand how you must've felt, because we felt the same; regret, guilt, sadness... It was then you leaned onto me too. We shared the same pain then, and we let it all go that night. You will be a great teacher to the little ones and don't let them bully you okay ^^ And also, you can invite us to your wedding and we could talk more about how many children you want HAHAHA Smile bright love, like a sunflower ♥
Ally
Bimbz, oh how much we've been through on this roller coaster ride together. I told you how much I've dreaded HOT back then and how I was so shocked that I was in the committee, what more an admin. I couldn't take on that much of a role, but you gave me confidence and strength to move on. You actually taught me to love HOT until it has become a part of me. Thank you for all the nonsense we've been doing be it in duties, HOT meetings, camps, or even in classes. You showed me a side I didn't know about through the days in HOT, something that I didn't see in classes or what not; your leadership. Man, your leadership and confidence as a leader is amazing. Your straightforward instructions, rationale thinking, loud and clear voice .... you're indeed like our dark horse in exco. Thank you for also being my bus buddy hehe I will miss the bus ride home and just sharing our happenings or concerns to one another. All the best in SIT okay! hehe you'll do fine like how you've always been doing ^^ all the best my bimbz ♥ (I've not sat in your car yet though)
Bimbz, oh how much we've been through on this roller coaster ride together. I told you how much I've dreaded HOT back then and how I was so shocked that I was in the committee, what more an admin. I couldn't take on that much of a role, but you gave me confidence and strength to move on. You actually taught me to love HOT until it has become a part of me. Thank you for all the nonsense we've been doing be it in duties, HOT meetings, camps, or even in classes. You showed me a side I didn't know about through the days in HOT, something that I didn't see in classes or what not; your leadership. Man, your leadership and confidence as a leader is amazing. Your straightforward instructions, rationale thinking, loud and clear voice .... you're indeed like our dark horse in exco. Thank you for also being my bus buddy hehe I will miss the bus ride home and just sharing our happenings or concerns to one another. All the best in SIT okay! hehe you'll do fine like how you've always been doing ^^ all the best my bimbz ♥ (I've not sat in your car yet though)
Yanni ahlianxzc
My partner in crime, thank you for having to withstand me for the past one year and settling all the horrible files and paper work. You're better in this than me anyway hahaha that's why I always have to look for you everytime whenever I had my doubts. I always feel bad cause you're always doing more work than I do. Ever since we started working together, we opened up to one another and we became the best of buddies, and you're wayyy different than how I imagined you to be, in a good way. hehehe- a very loving, funny, headstrong, and an ahlian :") When you left for China, I felt like a part of me was missing :< I knew how much you must've missed home so I really wanna make a video for you that day, I hope you liked it ^^ You're one of those person whom we really need to be objective and be headstrong in things. I know how disappointed you must be that day, sigh i should've listened to you back then... I must be caught in my own delusion and that my expectation got the worst out of me. I also understand how concerned you might be although you didn't really show it. But then again, it was all in the past and thank you for one of the people who pulled me out to reality and realizing what's more important. Good luck on your future ahead love! I will miss you ahlian ♥
My partner in crime, thank you for having to withstand me for the past one year and settling all the horrible files and paper work. You're better in this than me anyway hahaha that's why I always have to look for you everytime whenever I had my doubts. I always feel bad cause you're always doing more work than I do. Ever since we started working together, we opened up to one another and we became the best of buddies, and you're wayyy different than how I imagined you to be, in a good way. hehehe- a very loving, funny, headstrong, and an ahlian :") When you left for China, I felt like a part of me was missing :< I knew how much you must've missed home so I really wanna make a video for you that day, I hope you liked it ^^ You're one of those person whom we really need to be objective and be headstrong in things. I know how disappointed you must be that day, sigh i should've listened to you back then... I must be caught in my own delusion and that my expectation got the worst out of me. I also understand how concerned you might be although you didn't really show it. But then again, it was all in the past and thank you for one of the people who pulled me out to reality and realizing what's more important. Good luck on your future ahead love! I will miss you ahlian ♥
YEP people
Going for YEP must be one of the best decisions I've ever made in my entire poly life. I think lots have happened during YEP, I've forged new and old ones, I've made (a little) contribution to the people there I guess? I worked my ass off in hard labour (but was very fun if you ask me) I've created memories with the children there where in return they taught me so many more things about life in their innocent and sincere ways.. which make me think a lot right now; how I should be appreciating life a little more now.. But enough of sentimental talk haha
Bila
You're the first ever person that came to mind when I was gonna type this to... and.. There's so many things I wanna say to you. When you gave me the letter I was tearing up so badly because it brought me back to so many memories during DPA days... Yes, we weren't close during that time, and I just left abruptly like that, and I guess you didn't know what had happened that made me leave like that. I didn't expect you to, because I don't blame you for it, I never did. I guess I was too upset, too angry at how people just isolate me without giving me a reason for doing so, instead I was blaming it at everyone, including you; I'm so sorry for what I've done 3 years back... I was blessed that fate made us meet and talk things through during a simple trip. I could still remember that night where we just so happen to bring that topic up. It was something that I wished to forget to be honest, but you told me what happened as well as your side of the story that I didn't expect it to hear it from you. Ever since that trip, its as though I've found back a friend and our friendship has gotten stronger as a result. Coming back to the attic during our TAR presentation suddenly gave me a surge of overwhelming emotions. When you hugged me and told me that you were sorry, I just couldn't help but cry badly. I didn't want you to feel that way anymore.. You're now one of my precious friends whom I hoped to cherish for the rest of my life. I could never be grateful for you, for meeting you again, for coming into my life again. You're a beautiful person, Bila. Thank you for letting me let go of my grudge and teaching me to forgive and forget. I hope that our friendship doesn't stop here, if you need someone to talk to I'll be glad to be that someone. ♥
Kian
Annoying Kid. You need to stop thinking too much haha. A lot has happened this year, and I know it has been a tough journey for you. I've now seen your weakest side, but I now see a stronger Kian. And I'm very happy to see you be the bright and positive Kian I know back in YEP. I shall not say anything here that involves that but, I just want to say, you will find your own happiness very soon so don't worry and just enjoy life the way it is now. Goodluck for being an alumni instructor ohohhoh someone is following his mum's footsteps i see :") Whatever you wanna pursue next, you can do it and know that the people who truly care for you will not leave you alone. I still don't know if i helped you in certain ways? but I'm glad I was able to at least help someone if I could. Stay strong kay Kian! ♥ And stop taking Justice away from me :<
Other YEP people
Thank you each and every one of you who have contributed a piece of precious memory in my heart. All those late night meetings and dance practices and games in the middle of the night bcus we don't wanna sleep so early sometimes will be cherished forever. It was really nice bumping into people around in school and its like our friendship hasn't faded away. All the best for your future endeavor and if we see each other again, say hi okay! ^^ ♥
Juniors: Turtles, Pigwidgeons, HOT Junior excos, GG, KCC groups
All you juniors (you know who you are), It has been a pleasure and an honour working with you and giving you some piece of fond memories you could remember in your 3 years in poly. I know it must be hard having to keep up with me especially haha but thank you for being such enthusiastic juniors and giving in your all in whatever you're doing. Seeing you excel and taking up leadership positions made me so happy and proud inside ^^ I've seen you guys from like year 1 and now you're year 3... you've grown so much in appearance but in character. Thank you for also giving me precious memories that I will keep and cherish whilst I was your leader/GL/mentor. ♥ and to those who're still in contact with me, I will really miss you guys.. thank you for the love you've showered me with just words or a hug. I love listening to how you're fairing in school and how happy you are right now in NP. Its like seeing my own children walking and are now running to find their own dreams. Keep on running, mama will still be here.
I met you guys in different ways, and timing, but I feel that you guys have helped and played a part in my journey too! Thank you each and every one of you, for giving me nonsensical stuff and tweets to make my day. I know I'm not in the fandom much now, but thank you for always updating me with information hehe. Also, its like I have friends whom I can talk to not just for SJ, but just as friends, I like that. :> Thank you for all the meetups and sleepovers and everything because sometimes whenever my workload gets too much, I will turn towards fandom, what's better is having friends here too. We will meet more too don't worry ^^ ♥
OT4 Drunktards
You guys have barged into my life and now I guess we're stuck to one another for quite a long time huh. You guys have greatly played a part in my NP life, although you weren't there physically, but whenever I'm in lectures/tutorials/cramming/stressed etc, I will turn to you guys and you gave me so much comfort and strength to press on. You were like a sort of distraction to me (in a good/bad way) and I like how we can just talk about everything and anything you name it. I will be with you in this journey together. I'm not gonna say much cause I know I will say more things in the near future ;)
Ebelle
Hi 5 year old, I like how we're of the same frequency in some ways I cannot describe hehe. I don't know how we got close but we somehow did? hahaha Thank you for being one of the important pillars in my life, and I could just talk to freely although you will always be the one judging and laughing at me for my weird and dumb ways. But then again, we're dumb together so its okay hehe ^^ Thank you for always entertaining me to keep my mind off of things in your special way i don't know how. As you go through this important year, I hope i can now be someone you can lean onto cause I know it will be tough for you. Don't let failure demoralize you okay, you're better than you think you are! Don't worry about the future too much, focus on the present and maybe time will tell and soon, you'll know where you wanna go in the future. ♥
Cass
My NP Successor hahaha I hope you don't regret coming into NP. its too early and too late to say that. I know its been tough on you so far, but hang in there. You just need to get used to it and you'll everything will fall into place for you. Thank you for being my fluffy and confiding me in your worries and doubts. You too, are an important person to me and thank you for coming into my life. Like how I've always been telling you, things will be hard for you, but it will okay once you pass this phase/period. Pursue in the things you wish on doing, your interests, NP has many places to explore and meet new people, don't be afraid to try new things and meet new people okay? We're here for you! ♥
My NP Successor hahaha I hope you don't regret coming into NP. its too early and too late to say that. I know its been tough on you so far, but hang in there. You just need to get used to it and you'll everything will fall into place for you. Thank you for being my fluffy and confiding me in your worries and doubts. You too, are an important person to me and thank you for coming into my life. Like how I've always been telling you, things will be hard for you, but it will okay once you pass this phase/period. Pursue in the things you wish on doing, your interests, NP has many places to explore and meet new people, don't be afraid to try new things and meet new people okay? We're here for you! ♥
Min
I think writing to you is gonna be pretty hard for me cause I actually don't know where to start. But one thing for certain, I thank God for the blessing and on that fateful day where we first met. And ever since that day, our friendship just sky rocketed to idk what we are now hahaha. You keep saying that I've helped you in so many ways in poly but hey, you did the same for me. Whenever I felt like giving up or when I'm stressed, you always tell me otherwise. You've seen me in my worst, ugliest, and weakest side of me, yet you've stuck to me... telling me that I'm worth much more. Thank you for that. You remember what I said last time? How I said I envy you as a person? I still do. There's so many traits you have that I wish to have myself, I wish I was as brave as you, as vocal as you, as strong willed as you, as compassionate as you. You keep telling yourself you don't know where you're going in life, you're unsure, you're scared of facing reality, how you've failed. I suck at helping people get back on their feet, but I hope you know that there's so many people out there who care so much for you (I've seen many). Let those people in and don't suffer by yourself. I still stand by my words at how miracles can work in their own special ways, how you can experience your own miracle. Don't give up hope, the world is too beautiful and much more to give up on. Work your way up to be the person you deem yourself to be successful, regardless how hard it will be. I know I cannot do much, but I will try my best to help you achieve your dream. I shall not say anymore, but do know that you really mean a lot to me, really. ♥
I think writing to you is gonna be pretty hard for me cause I actually don't know where to start. But one thing for certain, I thank God for the blessing and on that fateful day where we first met. And ever since that day, our friendship just sky rocketed to idk what we are now hahaha. You keep saying that I've helped you in so many ways in poly but hey, you did the same for me. Whenever I felt like giving up or when I'm stressed, you always tell me otherwise. You've seen me in my worst, ugliest, and weakest side of me, yet you've stuck to me... telling me that I'm worth much more. Thank you for that. You remember what I said last time? How I said I envy you as a person? I still do. There's so many traits you have that I wish to have myself, I wish I was as brave as you, as vocal as you, as strong willed as you, as compassionate as you. You keep telling yourself you don't know where you're going in life, you're unsure, you're scared of facing reality, how you've failed. I suck at helping people get back on their feet, but I hope you know that there's so many people out there who care so much for you (I've seen many). Let those people in and don't suffer by yourself. I still stand by my words at how miracles can work in their own special ways, how you can experience your own miracle. Don't give up hope, the world is too beautiful and much more to give up on. Work your way up to be the person you deem yourself to be successful, regardless how hard it will be. I know I cannot do much, but I will try my best to help you achieve your dream. I shall not say anymore, but do know that you really mean a lot to me, really. ♥
I saved yours for last because you 4 are the main reason why my 3 years in NP so memorable and its hard for me to part from. I miss seeing you everyday on average of 12 hours each day especially when we have to cram for assignments!? How we rant and complain about the lunch peak hours and how we have to resort to sitting on floors in weird ulu places. How each of us aren't actually paying attention to lectures and do our own shit. How we have weird telepathy skills and wear coordinated outfits without knowing?! How we gossip and just talk about our futures and our ideal weddings and ex boyfriends. How we always sacrifice our image and reputation to get very nice pictures for instagram. The camps we've been through!? sigh so many things we've done and honestly the list is endless. But thank you the 4 of you, for accepting me the way I am and despite how you 4 always tease and bully me, but love me at the end of the day makes me warm and fuzzy inside. I don't think I'll be able to survive poly if it wasn't for you guys. We've seen each other grew from freshies to being fabulous. Thank you, my 4 unique beautiful people, regardless of each of your flaws and imperfections, I still love you very very much. I hope we keep our promises and that we will stay together 5ever and ever?
Fing
My first friend I met in some cathay place hahaha oh fing you've changed so much since the last time I saw you. Now you're a fine and beautiful lady hehe ;) Thank you for being the very kind hearted and optimistic soul that I love. Our friendship has indeed gone through lots of ups and down hasn't it? But I'm glad that we've managed to settle that aside and we are as strong as ever.
We've seen each other grow from being lepak people who wear shorts/bermudas and specs to being ultra naive people by the end of year 3. :") How we used to go to school together and meet at cheers was something I will never forget too. I also remember how we used to somewhat danced(?) in front of the mirror when we were in year 1. omg the embarrassing times. I'm sorry if I ever doubted or misjudged you in anyway.
Thank you for always going the extra mile and making sure I'm okay whenever I'm like dying in school haha. Please know that you're much smarter than you think you are, Fing. Is just that you kept doubting yourself, but look at your grades, I don't need to know, but I'm sure it was great ^^ And I'm very proud of your achievements regardless. I will miss spazzing to you about korean dramas or movies or hot guys which I have no idea how you found so many of them. And stop saying you need to diet >:( You're already skinny and pretty! I pray for all the bestest for your uni life and you will survive whoop whoop! maybe you'll find your true love there too? ;) Thank you for always having faith in me ♥
We've seen each other grow from being lepak people who wear shorts/bermudas and specs to being ultra naive people by the end of year 3. :") How we used to go to school together and meet at cheers was something I will never forget too. I also remember how we used to somewhat danced(?) in front of the mirror when we were in year 1. omg the embarrassing times. I'm sorry if I ever doubted or misjudged you in anyway.
Thank you for always going the extra mile and making sure I'm okay whenever I'm like dying in school haha. Please know that you're much smarter than you think you are, Fing. Is just that you kept doubting yourself, but look at your grades, I don't need to know, but I'm sure it was great ^^ And I'm very proud of your achievements regardless. I will miss spazzing to you about korean dramas or movies or hot guys which I have no idea how you found so many of them. And stop saying you need to diet >:( You're already skinny and pretty! I pray for all the bestest for your uni life and you will survive whoop whoop! maybe you'll find your true love there too? ;) Thank you for always having faith in me ♥
Fayeah
My swag clubber girl. You're one brave and unique swagger that I will always admire. I will miss my vulgar, tomboy girl who loves wearing cute skirts and hello kitty :") I know we, too also had our differences along the way, and I'm sorry if I've ever came out as harsh and unreasonable that must've hurt you in any way.
Nevertheless, thank you for being someone whom I can rely on and know that we have each others back. I know this journey hasn't been easy for you, but I'm so very proud of you that right now you're achieving something that you really want to do. I will miss my confident Fayeah, and only coming to school whenever you like and wearing your very striking neon fbts and signature slippers and not to mention your bun. :") I will miss having to keep up with your fast speed typing and research which somewhat always amazes me one way or another.
We've finally achieved what we wanted on the last sem right? To prove others wrong that we can be as good as them, and you did it too love. I love how you will always put up a brave front and be confident in whatever you do especially in presentations. Your improvisation skills will be something that no one can ever beat. Don't let others like that pull you down again okay! Whether you're going to stay in this field or not, I will respect your decision no matter what. Don't forget us okay! At least invite us to your wedding or something ;) Thank you for giving me so much laughter in your special way ♥
Madeu
First of all, I wanna say how you're beautiful both inside and out. :) Bloop bloop, we got closer because of Dip plus and I don't know if its fate or what that we ended up in the same class for the first one and everything just falls into place after that. I must say, the first class was the best because it was the time where we truly opened up to one another; we shared our concerns and doubts in life and staying up all night to complete our assignments with 0 sleep at all and coming back like on high? And how you will spazz and die about Niel? and how the story of the boxers came from?
So many things happened during that one week and I guess our friendship got stronger from there on. Thank you nevertheless, for the long hugs and always clearing my doubts because I'm always a paranoid bitch :") Both of us have cried in front of each other before so yeap we're fair don't worry. And thank you for always understanding my weird needs and gongness, although you will always use them against me anyway :<
Thank you for always being the burden and you have to end up taking care of me although you're actually the youngest. :") Also, thank you for supporting HOT and being the super enthu person although I know you were just doing it for me haha, I really appreciate that madeu. I know you're worried about where you're going to in the future, but know that regardless, you will find the answer soon ^^ I'm always a phone call or whatsapp chat away when you need to just talk. Thank you for always giving me happiness in my dark gloomy days ♥
My swag clubber girl. You're one brave and unique swagger that I will always admire. I will miss my vulgar, tomboy girl who loves wearing cute skirts and hello kitty :") I know we, too also had our differences along the way, and I'm sorry if I've ever came out as harsh and unreasonable that must've hurt you in any way.
Nevertheless, thank you for being someone whom I can rely on and know that we have each others back. I know this journey hasn't been easy for you, but I'm so very proud of you that right now you're achieving something that you really want to do. I will miss my confident Fayeah, and only coming to school whenever you like and wearing your very striking neon fbts and signature slippers and not to mention your bun. :") I will miss having to keep up with your fast speed typing and research which somewhat always amazes me one way or another.
We've finally achieved what we wanted on the last sem right? To prove others wrong that we can be as good as them, and you did it too love. I love how you will always put up a brave front and be confident in whatever you do especially in presentations. Your improvisation skills will be something that no one can ever beat. Don't let others like that pull you down again okay! Whether you're going to stay in this field or not, I will respect your decision no matter what. Don't forget us okay! At least invite us to your wedding or something ;) Thank you for giving me so much laughter in your special way ♥
Madeu
First of all, I wanna say how you're beautiful both inside and out. :) Bloop bloop, we got closer because of Dip plus and I don't know if its fate or what that we ended up in the same class for the first one and everything just falls into place after that. I must say, the first class was the best because it was the time where we truly opened up to one another; we shared our concerns and doubts in life and staying up all night to complete our assignments with 0 sleep at all and coming back like on high? And how you will spazz and die about Niel? and how the story of the boxers came from?
So many things happened during that one week and I guess our friendship got stronger from there on. Thank you nevertheless, for the long hugs and always clearing my doubts because I'm always a paranoid bitch :") Both of us have cried in front of each other before so yeap we're fair don't worry. And thank you for always understanding my weird needs and gongness, although you will always use them against me anyway :<
Thank you for always being the burden and you have to end up taking care of me although you're actually the youngest. :") Also, thank you for supporting HOT and being the super enthu person although I know you were just doing it for me haha, I really appreciate that madeu. I know you're worried about where you're going to in the future, but know that regardless, you will find the answer soon ^^ I'm always a phone call or whatsapp chat away when you need to just talk. Thank you for always giving me happiness in my dark gloomy days ♥
Poop
I don't know how to start this off to be very honest.... I'm guessing you should know what I'm about to say right? Meeting you was the greatest thing that have ever happened to me. If there's one thing that I wish I could rewind back, I wish it could bring me to the time where we just started to get close in our second year... sadly, I still couldn't remember how we managed to get along so well. Its as though we knew each other for so long? You knew me like at the back of your hand- know my strength, weakness, fears, insecurities, doubts, habits, everything. I don't think there's one thing that I've ever kept a secret from you. You let me into your life and slowly, you made me be myself whenever I'm with you... I feel comfortable sharing my thoughts to you, and you would just listen without any hesitation. I guess you must've seen me in two extreme ends; how I would just rant and throw out every vulgarity, or just cry in front of you, or show how happy I am... you accept everything, for who I am. You gave certainty about myself, whenever I feel like I've disappointed the people around me, how useless I sometimes feel... yet you're always here for me regardless. Sometimes I would just jokingly tell you why are you stuck onto me or something, but actually I think I'm the clingy one who is afraid of being alone...afraid people will just walk away from me. I'm sorry for being an overly attached friend.
We started finding our love for sashimis and sushis, soon it became our thing, we started to find how we love shopping, or just simply sitting down and chat for the longest time ever. Now that we know that we couldn't spend more time with one another like how we used to last time due to our individual schedules/priorities, we started to cherish our time more whenever we meet. But things will always be the same right?
You're like a baby to me most of the time, how I willingly/naturally take care of you; how you have to eat properly, being like a panic woman if you're sick/emotionally tired/sad/drained/sick/angry etc. How I panic of the simplest of thing and you always tell me "I'm okay lah why so serious steph". Idk... I think i worry too much about you. But now that you have D, I guess it eases off one part of my burden load right? hehe I trust that he's doing a good job or you know, I can always track him down. :") You are doing a great job as a teacher and I know its tough so far, but things will get better, and it will be worth it I'm sure. You do know I will still annoy you right? I know our friendship will last for a very long time. I cannot wait to see what future awaits for the both of us, but.. No matter where I'll be, I will always be here for you. Thank you for letting me be part of your life ♥
I don't know how to start this off to be very honest.... I'm guessing you should know what I'm about to say right? Meeting you was the greatest thing that have ever happened to me. If there's one thing that I wish I could rewind back, I wish it could bring me to the time where we just started to get close in our second year... sadly, I still couldn't remember how we managed to get along so well. Its as though we knew each other for so long? You knew me like at the back of your hand- know my strength, weakness, fears, insecurities, doubts, habits, everything. I don't think there's one thing that I've ever kept a secret from you. You let me into your life and slowly, you made me be myself whenever I'm with you... I feel comfortable sharing my thoughts to you, and you would just listen without any hesitation. I guess you must've seen me in two extreme ends; how I would just rant and throw out every vulgarity, or just cry in front of you, or show how happy I am... you accept everything, for who I am. You gave certainty about myself, whenever I feel like I've disappointed the people around me, how useless I sometimes feel... yet you're always here for me regardless. Sometimes I would just jokingly tell you why are you stuck onto me or something, but actually I think I'm the clingy one who is afraid of being alone...afraid people will just walk away from me. I'm sorry for being an overly attached friend.
We started finding our love for sashimis and sushis, soon it became our thing, we started to find how we love shopping, or just simply sitting down and chat for the longest time ever. Now that we know that we couldn't spend more time with one another like how we used to last time due to our individual schedules/priorities, we started to cherish our time more whenever we meet. But things will always be the same right?
You're like a baby to me most of the time, how I willingly/naturally take care of you; how you have to eat properly, being like a panic woman if you're sick/emotionally tired/sad/drained/sick/angry etc. How I panic of the simplest of thing and you always tell me "I'm okay lah why so serious steph". Idk... I think i worry too much about you. But now that you have D, I guess it eases off one part of my burden load right? hehe I trust that he's doing a good job or you know, I can always track him down. :") You are doing a great job as a teacher and I know its tough so far, but things will get better, and it will be worth it I'm sure. You do know I will still annoy you right? I know our friendship will last for a very long time. I cannot wait to see what future awaits for the both of us, but.. No matter where I'll be, I will always be here for you. Thank you for letting me be part of your life ♥
